hey everyone

today is the.... 17th? yes it is! haha cuz me and lindsey are going to hang out on the 18th (TOMORROW!!) and on the 19th (YESSS!!) how fun will taht be??!?!? ok ok im being lame, but im still excited. :-P

newhoo, we got tickets off of Fan-dang-go haha i love saying that word. fan-DANG-gooooOOOoo   haha. you kno  you love me

*sighs* lindsey i can't believe you were online for an hour and didn't have time to do ur blog! lol. jk jk. just saying.

nothing new with me. still just hanging out with friends, and im enjoying the new quarter. i love my sched so much better and i have lunch with ashley ashley kendra nicole and kasey. i love it! they are the biggest goofballs ever!

hummm... all for now i spose

see you soon lindz!

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today starts my THREE DAY WEEKEND! *sighs* i love the sound of that! haha. so far my weekend is off to a good start, i went over to kendra's last night and a bunch of my friends were there and we partied lol. and guess what? kevin and mikey showed up! haha and of course, so was ashley's bf nick (i swear hes like attached to her by the hip! lol) newayz. KEVIN lol. nothing happend. we all just hung out, went to the park and goofed off, played texas hold em and video games (i whiped their but at tetris! haha) and yeah listend to loud music. it was a blast! i was mad when we had to leave but i had to be home by a certain time cuz my dad had to leave for a meeting or something. lol. ah well. i got invited to another get together today at ashley's (not ashlye b's, my  other friend ashley) but no surprise, im babysitting *groans*. wah-hoo. *slumps in chair* god, babysitting is gonna be the death of me!! I SWEAR! im SICK OF IT! LINDZ your lucky your an only child!! lol. *sighs and silently fumes; calms down* ok ok ill stop ill stop.

lets see.... what else?

O, monday starts our new quarter! lol i don't change any teachers, which is alright cuz i don't mind my teachers. but my classes flip flop a little. but i get first lunch and so does rachel! yay! haha. i don't kno who else does tho so we might be sitting alone together (haha does that make sense? *ponders*... yeah i think it does) lol. but yeah, itll be nice to have spanish second hour, having it last hour was MURDER! haha.  i still have band first hour whcih is nice cuz we don't do any work-work so its a good class for the mornign cuz we don't want any work. haha. go band! lol. ok taht was lame. i never said that, k?

hum, what else am i doing... im gonna go over to sam s's and burn lindsey's cd! haha! yay! *hugs lindsey* by the way everyone, lindsey is the bestest ever! haha. and we're gonna have a BLAST hanging out and then goin to the movie! *squeals* only 8 DAYS LEFT!!! *jumps up and down* YAYAYAYAYYAY! haha. ok done. wait, *more jumping* YAYAYAYA *squeals* ok NOW im done. lol. ill talk to you all later! im done online for now. :-D ill be on periodically since im STUCK HOME BABYSITTING *fuming*

ill talk to ya'll later

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i think ive come up to a solutiion i really like matt but i think for now we are just gonna be friends. he's too good to just throw away, but i don't think its worth being his gf or anything. he's such a great guy and i have fun with him and i don'tneed him to be a bf to do that.

as for kevin i think im forgetting about him. i still like him and i cant forget how much fun homecoming was bu twhat i think happend was the fact that i liked the attention he gave me more then i actually liked him... i mean im not gonna dismiss him entirely, if he shows me he's interested then yeah but until then im gonna focus on other htings. lol i had a streak here where guys were everything but i don't need to obsess about that. everything wil happen and i think it happens for a reason so why rush it? a day at a time. i can't expect everytng to just *poof* and be perfect and how i wish it was but i can do what i can to make me happy and just enjoy everyday. i kno i sound like such a cornball but hey that just popped into my head today. i mean, if it turns out that matt and i were meant to be more then friends then cool. if not, then that's fine too. same wiht kev,.

kay-sa-rah, sah-rah... whatever will be will be... the futures not ours to see... kay-sa-rah.. sah-rah

lol lamo song i learned in like 2nd grade but hey, its words hold true

newhoo, anyone besides me watch the simpsons halloween special?!?!?

it was pretty funnY! lol. i havne't watched the simpsons in a looong time but i saw it advertise the halloween special and im like YEAH IM WATCHIN THAT! haha. it was fun and now im online and guess what...? LINDSEY"S ON AT THE SAME TIME!!!!!! *halleluiah chorus*  and we're rocking out to fob! lol. well actually she's rocking out to it... she just said she was listening to fob and i was jamming to the music in my head that is played by fob lol but hey, same dif right?

my fam has tickets to disney on ice for dec 1st. haha. taht should be.... i dk lol. i jsut hope its not like a 5 yr old thing. lol. my fam knows some1 who gave us tickets i guess. i spose hey why let em go to waste? free tickets... lol

only 2 days til my bday!

and only 13 days til i go see HARRY POTTER WITH LINDSEY!!!! HECK YESSS!!!!!!!!!! im so psyched!

well im done writing

lol i kno that was abrupt

haha

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ok seriusly NOW im done

now

wait...

now!

haha jk

NOW!

lindsey updated her blog! give it up for lindsey! *round of applause and halleluiah chorus* haha. jk lindz!!

thanks for writing about me i do appreciate it. i made up my mind about what guy i like better but i dont kno if is hould go for it... hes so nice and stuff but he has a bad rep kinda. not like druggie rep but like a ditch class rep and im not sure what to do. i mean, like i said, he walks me to class and he actually pays attention to me and altho i already miss kevin altho he wasn't mine to miss, he gives me attention and he doesn't midn talking with me or waiting by my locker. the only thing im worried about really is his old rep. i mean, like i said he's no druggie. plus if he was he'd be history but he doesn't exatly get the best grades. lol. but i spose i can't control who i like. but i just don't want to be looked down apon or made fun of or ridiculed for likeing him. no1 knows i like him except lindsey and whoever reads this thing. no1 . and that's hard to like some one but being afraid to sho it cuz its not fair to him if he likes me and i keep leading him on i like him without being willing to admit i like him to everyone else. lol. its so complicated!! i didn't kno high school would be liket his. before thsi year i never REALLY liked someone. i mean, sure i had crushes, who didn't? but this is different. i don't kno. maybe im stupid or something. but like i said he's so nice to me and walks me to my locker and waits for me and stuff.... is that more important than how my friends see him, or not?

thanks agian lindz for the advice. your always able to help me outr and just listen to me when i go on and on liket his! lol! yoru the best, AND I CAN"T WAIT TO SEE HP WITH YOU! *squeals* im so EXCITED! ITS GONNA ROCK!

o, btw sry id idn't call lol. i have been helping out with jessie's bball lately. so yeah im keeping busy (again) lol im never gonna get a break!

newhoo, enough about the dramatic troubles... hmmm... what's new with my life..?

*silence for a long stretch of time* ummm........................... O! wait..... AH HAH! ...no....

hm, how pathetic am i?

lol

ill update this tomorrow probably.

hope to talk to you lata lindz! i miss you bunches!

3 days til my bday! (not counting today!!)

YAY!

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day after halloween

(writes as if detective)

nov the first, tuesday, 8:21 pm, computer office

no sound but the typing of my fingers persuades me from my thoughts. teh constant tapping a gentle hum in my brain.

today full of irresplicet memories, as they have happend they are already in the past so now it iss my job to focus on more pressing matters; the future,

catagory 1, matt A.

matt

description

eyes: unknown

hair: brwon

height,: inch taller then me

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catagory 2

kevin p

eyes- green?

hair- blonde

height- about 2 inches taller then me

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the pressing matter is who?    kevin has been the idle of my attention for a while now. but matt a has been having my heart to a kind of jump start whenever he walks pass me int he hall. kevin as i begin to cease seeing him, as wednesdays seem to be fading, and our schedules will soon be changeing i fear disconnected altho when i see him i still get that same jolt and tingle in my stomach. but matt.. he has a smile to make ur heart stop and its so contagious that u automatcically smiel back. what is this strange spell he has on me; this boy whose locker is down my hallway, this boy who walked me to my locker, this boy who i see in the hall everyday and wave hi to. could it be that kevin is fading? i saw no other boy but kevin.. and he still consumes my thoughts. but the infrequency of our meeting seems to have taken its toll, and this matt... he is much like him. same humor, same charisma, same.. alot. the only difference is his smile, the heart stopping smile. i hav guilt when i see him due to my feelings i thought were ment for kevin. i thought id only see him but my thoughts wander more and more to this matt, the one who i get to kno more and more...

summary of the matter

matt < ;  =  ; or > kevin ?

lindz!

help!

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